zidarlys
Newling
Hybrid Vampire, awakened 2004
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I joined July 2009
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Post by zidarlys on Jul 9, 2009 20:12:53 GMT 1
pff, my awakening, it's a period I have largely blocked from my concsious memory.
For me, it started at age 17, the beginning of the summer. I'm generally quite healthy, and headaches were something I would only get when taking it over from people around me (I have some abilities, including energetic healing, being empathic, I can feel what others feel). But back then, I suddenly started to get heavy headaches, without any reason. No-one in my surroundings were having headaches, and I wasn't experiencing stress or what so ever. For a while, I just tried to fight it with painkillers, but that didn't do much. I went to an opticien to check my eyes, and instead of worse vision, my eyes had improved. straaaange. But ok, new contacts, but the headaches remained, so it wasn't that. Finally went to a doctor, but it wasn't migrain.Luckily sunglasses helped a bit after I figured out that outside the headaches got worse. Around that time (had the headaches a few weeks), I was already starting to feel lethargic, everything was too tiring to undertake. Beside that, I kept drinking, even water, which I usually never drink, but I kept thirsty. To make things even worse, it seemed I coudn't fall asleep anymore. It would be around 5 or 6 in the morning I would eventually fall asleep, and when the alarm went off, I could barely wake up. In the weekends this worked out a bit better, I stayed up, sometimes till 8 in the morning, before I went to bed, and if my ex wouldnt wake me in the meantime, I would sleep till about 6 in the evening, shortly said, my whole day/night routines turned around. In those days I was practising wicca, and through that, found out about vampirism. The symptoms described sounded só familiar. I started to get my hands on every piece of information I could get, and it didn't take long for me to realize it was my 'problem'. While I kept reading everthing I could, I was struggling with myself. I'm an active practisioner of native american shamanism, something that is all about helping others, and I couldn't intergrate being a vampire, a 'parasite' as I first felt like, with that. This all seems a lifetime ago now. I found a way to intergrate the both, supplementing eachother. Yes, I think I can say, I'm whole now.
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