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Post by angelus on Jan 5, 2005 16:52:22 GMT 1
An Open Letter to Any Who Would Wish to Become a Vampire.
I wrote this to someone in an email, and I think it bears repeating for any and al!
It's not at all like in the movies or books. Sure, I understand. I'd like to be THAT way, too, but I'm not. You are young; you have the whole world open to you. You can be anything that you choose if you apply yourself and try hard to work toward that goal. But being a vampire is not what it seems like. It's a life full of frustrations, and complications, stress and worry. We are as human as you are. Our lives are just as ratty and boring as anyone else's life. It's not what you are that counts, but how you choose to be. Do you want a life full of interesting things? Do you want to have power and influence over others? To be charming and desirable? To have wealth, health, and longevity?
Being a vampire won't automatically cause these things to happen. You, yourself, must strive to obtain these things for yourself. Do you want to be interesting and different? All you'll be is different. People, if they know, will think you're a freak, or that you're just a mental case; they won't believe. If they do believe, they won't understand. It's a pain. You lose friends, not gain them. You go through life struggling with yourself. There are times when you would be without any sources, and what will you do then, but suffer? You can't just go out and "take" someone, or hypnotise them to give you blood.
It doesn't work that way. You mess up, you have the Law after you, wanting to put you in jail, or a psychiatric hospital, where your needs DEFINITELY won't get met. So you suffer, and hate the one that turned or awakened you. I don't even know if "turning" someone is possible. For all I know, drinking blood itself is addictive. You have all sorts of unpleasant problems that go with it. Migraines, sensitivities, gastric problems. You'll be late for work on more than one occasion because you can't leave the house til you find your sunglasses, or you are vamping out too bad to make an appearance at work. That doesn't look good on your record. Bosses don't like that. They put little black marks by your name in your employee file.
And should you become tired of being this way, then too bad. You're stuck with it. Once the novelty wears off, or you decide that it's not the life for you, after all, then what? Life goes on. And you hate it worse than you may have hated it before you were a vampire. Do you really want to feel strung out, shakey, ill-at-ease and constantly, endlessly thirsty all the time? Do you want to place value on another person by how much blood you think they have in them? That may sound funny to you, but it's not. It's not funny at all. It's sad. Listen to me, I know this stuff. I live with it. It's not cool.
Ahhh, you're young, you won't listen to me. I know. It's the way of the young not to listen to those who are older and have lived through the things they speak of. I don't know what else to say. Either you will listen to me, or you won't. I'm not telling you this stuff to be a spoilsport, or to be mean and nasty, but so that you won't: A.) ruin your life with it, or B.) spend your life wishing to be something that you think is great, but isn't. If you never get to be a vampire, then you have not missed out on anything great and wonderful. Count yourself fortunate.
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